I woke (again) early this morning, at the sound of our baby daughter squirming in pain. Teething. Red rash and all. I wish I could sooth the world like I can sooth her. Most of the time. It is so gratifying to be so much to someone by the by. She is a blessed being. She was born last year, before all the madness began. She joined her flame to ours, she lights all our ways.
Then I read the urgent plea from a family friend in India asking for plasma for her mother on ventilator, sick with Covid. I shared and did what I thought best to help in some minute way,I wish them the best. I couldn't regain my sleep. This on a night that I had already not slept much. The mind wanders, it imagines, the worst and the best too.
What is life, if not for the people in it? Before he left, Tim gave me a bracing embrace. Knowing exactly what was needed. Oh how solid he is, he solves all and soothes all. I tell him he'd be my mother, if he weren't my husband. But aren't all bodies we hold dear, extremely fragile? At least in our minds. Treasuring them and not taking them for granted also makes everything fleeting. Do I live in constant fear of losing them? How can I not? I feel like wrapping my arms around them all holding them tight. Hiding them under a comfortable, warm blanket on a cold night, and feeding them nourishing soup and bread. or anything else they wish for. Like I can with my little daughter, who fits so well in my arms. They are all big and able. I sometimes feel invincible in my worry for them. As if I can withstand anything, fight anything, but my loved ones might not be so strong. I am wrong of course, because they are all strong, all brave - and some of them are in India. This is what meditation was made for.
Oh India. India that burns.Oh my India. I hope and pray constantly. I think if I hold a spoon this way than that, the likely-hood of their safety increases. The games the mind plays. Despair prevails in that country, under men gone mad with ego and power. What has the world come to?
The time I wrote my last blog post last year, December 19, who had an inkling of such a huge disaster that has played out in the world. Daily we see how increasingly suspicious and stupid people grow with it. Those who can't grasp how big this disaster is then resort to soothing themselves with make believes, conspiracies. The theorists have probably killed as many as the virus.
I ask you, my readers, if you see some dumb idiot making unfounded claims on whichever platform, report it. That at least is your civic duty. Until 2019, I don't even remember seeing so much chatter on social media. So much hate, so much ignorance and anti scientific behavior. The worst were the flat earthers. Then suddenly, March 2020 and it all erupts and it's still going on. Being anti vax is a legitimate reason to not date someone and that is as it should be.
These hard days have shown us how much misinformation can do. How many it can kill. How many it can corrupt. How extremely important education is. How equally important it is to not give air time to idiots. I have not minus thousand patience for anyone with such apathetic, cruel, selfish, greedy, closed mind. No wonder poor Greta gets angry.
And , literally, I deserve no sympathy, I need none. There are many millions who do though. If there ever was a year to make donations, this is it. Here is a worthy cause, out of millions out there of course. https://www.unicef.org/immunization
With a heavy heart, I sign off. Ever hopeful that I will be able to report gladder tidings the next time I find a minute to write for myself.
Ah... and I could go on and on about the pleasures of writing. Of the words just slipping off the tips of my fingers. Not always but at times.
Much good has come forward in these hard times too! I now remember. We have learnt so much, so has science, we may soon have a cure for cancer, The glass ceiling has recently been broken by a female of color in the Oscars, females did well in it this year, which had me celebrating in a little way. They have found a 100% bio degradable plastic, we have just come out of our 3 day lock-down in Perth and seem to have no other cases, fingers crossed. Australia continues to stay sensible. The world is so beautiful, our baby being the most beautiful of it all. The garden grows.
Maybe, the world does have a chance after all. Do send out a prayer, that it may be so.
